"The world look up and shout 'Save us!'. And I'll whisper 'No'."

Hey guys,

So I doubt anyone is going to read this but I thought I would try. I know it has been about two years since I've been on. I know, I got lazy. I haven't really been drawing very much, just concentrating on college. I'm a psychology major now. It's a lot of fun. Anywhoo, I'm mostly just looking at other people's work but I was tired at looking at the same post on here over and over again so I thought I would write this one. If anyone has any questions for me or any work they want me to look at, just send me a post. Thanks.

Brendan

"Just because you can't see in the dark doesn't mean there isn't a demon waiting to eat your face."

"You should always try to walk a mile in someone else's shoes. That way you are a mile away and you have their shoes."

Mood: I'm back!
Listening to: Chamillionare
Reading: Black Friday
Watching: Take the Lead

So who missed me? I know that it's been a while. Hell, my last journal was almost three months ago. Damn! I have been having fun though I know that I was pretty messed up there for a while with my whole relationship problems but that is all behind me now. I have completely different issues now I'm fine though. I'm not actually expecting many people to respond to this journal but hey, what the hell right?

So, interesting things that have happened lately... oh, I electricuted myself. That's right, I stuck my hand into an exposed light socket thing That felt really interesting. It shot from one arm to the next and I fell to the floor clutching my hand. I had a bunch of people over and they were all like "Oh, there's Brendan on the floor. Let's just keep walking" Nice people huh? Just kidding, they arn't bad. one did come over and help me though. Thanks Jen! You know I love you

Lets see, what else? Hm... I took my SATs. After about the first three hours I wanted to just get up and leave It was just so fucking boring. On the other hand, I'm pretty sure I aced my essay. It's going to be cool. That's right... I'm a genious! So what has every else been up to? What is the most interesting thing that has happened in each and every one of you people's lives lately. Oh, I just got a myspace too! Go check it out [link] but I must warn you that if you go to it, you will actually find out what I look like so if you don't want to know DON'T GO! Other than that... hang loose every one!

Seeya

"If I had a dime for every one of your thoughts I'd be giving you change."

"Don't tell me, show me."

Mood: I don't even know anymore
Listening To: Run It
Reading: Intensity
Watching: The Bucc's playoff game

Well I'm going to really try not to make this journal sad. I have been doig that lately and I appologize to everyone. I am trying to make myself feel better and I determined to do just that. It's kind of hard because a friend of mine named Seraph is making stuff kind of hard but another friend of mine named Michelle is going to fix all that. He has his doubts but I am positve she will come through Anyways, lets try to make this one a little happier. First off, how is everyone doing?

The game isn't too well. 13:30 left in the second quarter and it is 14 to 0, the Buccs are loosing. This really blows. We can never seem to get on top (which kind of sucks cause I like it on top ) Just kidding. Lets stay on that subject. For all those people who are experienced out there, what position do you like it the best? For all those who haven't been able to round all the bases yet, what is your favorite thing to do currently? I know that this is a kind of touchy subject to some people so if you don't want to answer, you don't have to.

I know that was a kind of weird paragraph but at least it wasn't me complaining. That is definitely a good thing. Mr Haggarty is cooking right now. He is a great cook. I know this is really a weird thing to say all of a sudden but I really need a hug and a kiss right now That would be awesome! Someone I know has been trying to pick a fight with me lately. Do you guys think I should fight him? I could easily tear him in half so bring it on! Well this journal is long enough as it is so I'm just going to stop now. I hope everyone answers everything I asked for and replies to me. Wish me luck with Seraph and Michelle.

Seeya

"When you're right, no one remembers. When you're wrong, no one forgets."

"Yo! Bring on the bitches!"

Mood: :sad: I'll give you one guess
Listening To: Charles play the guitar
Reading: Nothing
Watching: Nothing

So how is everyone doing? I have officially broken my record for how long I have been awake. I am now at about 256 hours and counting. Who out there cares you ask... absolutely no one!!!!! That's ok though. It doesn't really bother me. I have been awake for so long that I'm not even tired anymore. My body will probably shut down sometime soon and I'll sleep them. I'm weak all the time though. That kind of blows. Again, who cares? No one! *sigh* Knowing my luck, I won't be able to sleep tonight or tomorrow night and my body will just shut off in school. Then, most likely, my ex will just sit there and laugh at me. No biggie.

Well shit just keeps happening to me. I'm kind of starting to get used to it. I must have really pissed off God! For all those religiouses out there, don't tell me that God still loves me anyways because I know he does but that doesn't mean he's not picking on me. Plus, the one person I want to read this and actually start giving a shit most likely will probably read this but not comment. It's ok. I'm starting to realize she is never going to actually call me. Regardless, life goes on. Well I'm going to now and stop whining to all you because I'm sure I'm getting on your nerves. Just for a show of hands though, how many of you would prefer it if I just go slit my wrists and fall in a lake somewhere? Please be honest. I'll talk to you all later.

Seeya

"God is definitely not without a sense of humor"

"I can live without you. I just don't want to."

Mood: Dear God, Help me!
Listening to: Run It
Reading: Intensity
Watching: Dodgeball

Well things get worse for me everyday. It's ok though. I'm starting to realize that shit just doesn't go well for people like me, end of story. I tried to be just her friend but that didn't work. I can't be just her friend. Even before we were going out we were more than friends. We've always been more than friends. Now she wants me to be and I can't. I love her.

Anyways, I've seen to movies lately. Fun With Dick and Jane and Rumor Has It. Fun With Dick and Jane was hilarious. Rumor Has It was kind of a chick flick. No big deal really. Unfortuantely, Rumor Has It made me miss Trish more but lets not get into that.

I haven't been sleeping at all lately. I have been up for around 113 hours now. It's kind of hard being awake this much but I'm dealing with it. I've actually been up for so long now that I'm not even tired anymore. Weird huh? I've been trying to get Trish off my mind so I can sleep and eat more but its not working too well. If any of you have any suggestions, please tell them to me. I can really use them. Well, I'm off to go and try to sleep... again. I'll ttyl.

Seeya

"Just ask me, and be sincere, and I'll stay"